If you ask most of my friends, family, and colleagues to describe me, the words “driven,” “goal-oriented,” “extremely efficient” come up again and again. I’m a hard worker, always trying to go above and beyond expectations, and Adam often marvels (or, is disgusted?) by the number of tasks I tend to be juggling at any given point in time. When my coach advised that we take a week off at the end of this season – my first complete season since I started triathlon – part of me thought “YESSSSSS! Thank goodness!” The other part thought, “Time off? Now? I don’t deserve it – there is too much work to be done!"
But I agreed, and so we hit pause on training this week. At first, I thought, “This is great - I’ll take advantage of the week without training to get a lot of work done!” Between training/racing, seeking out sponsors, and running my own consulting practice, it often feels like there’s not enough time in the day. And as I’m sure many people can attest, it’s hard to disconnect and let go when the world around you seems to be spinning faster and faster everyday!
But once I physically slowed down enough to take a breath, I found that my mind was tired too… perhaps more tired than my body! So I gave myself permission to indulge a little; to bake because it makes me happy; to simply sit and enjoy watching “Scandal” with Adam (our latest obsession!) without simultaneously texting, catching up with email, and doing client work; and sometimes to just sit quietly and be!
I’m not gonna lie, I had moments of feeling guilty and thinking I should be doing something, ANYTHING! But when I moved through those moments and allowed myself to quiet those voices, it was so freeing – reminded me why Savasana is often referred to as the most important part of one’s yoga practice. The refreshment that has resulted was much needed, and I’m confident that the ability to find this mental quiet is a powerful tool that will help me hit refresh in the depths of winter training a couple months from now.
Now, with an eager mind and fresh body, it’s back to work on Monday morning…. 2016, here I come!